Ramblings of a madman extract (1963) (edited by author) – Lilith Legend: Risen
EDITORS NOTE: Ramblings was a jumbled mess when I first came across it. It had been written by a patient at Cranleigh Hospital who it was later believed to have been possessed. I cannot speak to the validity of the possession. All that I can say is that he died shortly after being admitted. I have tidied the notes to make them easier to read. I have had to use extracts from other sections to keep it short and keep what is written here relevant to the “legend”. No known original copies of the original “Book of Lilith” are known to exist.
Lilith was weak, very weak. The summoning of the trees, her previous trees, had taken most of her strength. Completely empty? No, but the fuel gauge was hovering around that dastardly “E”. What she needed was to feed, to refuel. How long had it been? Decades? Millenia? She had no idea. That damned meddling magic man with his dragon, well, she would get her revenge. At some point, she’d get revenge. But first, filling up the tank.
Lilith was still in the brats world; it was her world now she had decided, who was going to stop her? She would keep her word and stay out of the little shites way. All the spoiled bitch had to do was stay out of hers. Her skin sagged off her bones like a sheet hanging from a bed. She was old, an aged old crone. That was another thing she would have to fix; she wanted to be young once more. There was, she thought, as she worked out what she needed to do, no rest for the wicked. And boy, was she going to be wicked when she was topped up.
Like an animal coming out of deep hibernation, Lilith stepped forward into the trees she needed to feed. The trees were lush and green; dew sparkled on the leaves in the slight sunlight that could break through. She ran one of her old crone hands down the bark of a large oak and caressed it tenderly. She would have prefered to have seen the sun shining from the orange and red leaves of autumn, but still she this would have to do. She would be able to redecorate once she had regained her strength.
Lilith waked, and she headed away from the castle. She would keep to the trees and undergrowth as much as she could. The clothes she was wearing had once been so extravagant, now they hung only marginally more than her skin. They were nothing more than rags after all this time. She watched the animals climb and examine the trees, hopping about and minding their own business. If you gave them a chance, animals would always return. She needed to feed, and she needed to do it well and correctly on the first go. She did not want to risk any screwups while so weak. In life, you create what you know; It has always been this way. She was the Mother of Monsters, the Designer of Demons, so her first creation had been much like herself. There had been a few rules she gave herself in the time when she had created. The most important being to make sure you always kept control. She walked the woods, cackling to herself as she thought about this. Early creations had not had any intelligence, and she had learnt that you had to give them the power to think. You could teach, train, and even program them to do certain things. What made them really special and what made them scary was the power to think for themselves. You could never teach everything; you can never train for any situation. Intelligence was the key; without that, you have mindless drones.
Lilith’s foot tangled in a branch as she walked; the skin tore and revealed the soft pink flesh underneath. She cursed in an ancient foreign tongue as she tore the loose skin free. There was no blood from the wound. What blood she had once was now dried and long forgotten. Had she been human, she would have been a hollowed-out old husk in the bottom of a six-foot hole. She patted a tree as she walked past, “Not long and I’ll be back to myself”, she said to the trees that surrounded her. Her voice was old, frail, and decrepit; it was a voice that had not spoken aloud in many years. She threw the flap of skin to the ground and continued to walk.
A rat crawled from a tangle of grass and roots and sniffed at the flap. It looked around to make sure that no larger prey was watching and started to nibble the edges. When it was sure it was safe and not being watched, it gobbled the whole lot. Down in one, dead Lilith skin tasted good. Very good. The rat turned and started to itch; it had a terrible skin-crawling itch. It felt like something was crawling and picking at the flesh beneath its fur. Picking from the inside. A sore popped up on its back, pushing through the skin. It grew like a teenagers acne until the skin could stretch no more, and then it popped just like a well-squeezed zit. Then another pushed trough, and another. The rat’s body now looked like a saucepan of milk that was simmering with a thick skin. The yellow pus from the spots slimed its way over the rat’s body, and smoke started to rise. The rat squealed and writhed on the ground as it tried to escape the goo, unable to understand that it was coming from within. Its skin started to sag, and it looked like a drawing where the paint has started to run. The top half looked gooey and full of pus; the lower hung and touched the ground. The rat scrambled, trying to move its legs, but the bone and muscle just slipped from the skin until it was bone and mind inside the skin, trapped like the feathers in a cushion. The rat struggled inside its own skin, and it looked like a cat in a sack trying to escape a farmer. The smoke rose from the yellowing discharge, and the goo began to harden. The hardened pus started to lose its yellowing; It faded slowly until all that was left was a rat-sized grey looking rock. The rat cried out, and the only reply it got was the echo from the hard stone shell that was once its skin. It screamed until it could scream no more, and then it just waited. It waited to die. Its death, if you could call it that, took a long time. It takes years for consciousness to depart, and although the rat didn’t know it, couldn’t know it. That was all that it was now. The newly formed stone grew inwardly until it was just a rock on the ground in woodland. The rat screamed and cried when it could, confined in the rock. It squealed, yelled, squeaked, and screeched for years to come until finally its mind just dissolved and then it was no more than a rock on a path in the woods.
Lilith emerged from the trees, and she could not believe the sight that awaited her. When she had left, the world had been primitive. It was a world that was still learning to stand on its own feet, but now…
The farmland that was here and the simple wooden buildings that had grown were gone. She had seen these things before in other worlds, but never in her own world. This was hideous; it was outrageous. What had they done to her world? How long had she been confined? She arched her head up to look at the buildings that reached for the sky. Skyscrapers in her world? Well, they’d have to go. In her opinion, the 1920s and 30s in the prime were the best times for style and look, not these horrendous glass monstrosities. She was aware that many of them were being built in that era, but like many things that Lilith didn’t like, she just ignored them. “Besides”, she hummed to herself, “they looked better then”.
Lilith looked and saw a small pathway through the buildings. An entrance to the woodland for many, but it would be an exit for her. The pathway opened up like the neck of a wine bottle and got wider as she walked it. A group of youths watched as she hobbled past. She turned to look at them briefly and saw her reflection in the glass window behind them. Her hair, now grey and tangled, hung down around her backside. Her breasts dangled and sagged like an overfilled plastic bag; they wobbled from side to side as the weak matchstick legs moved. “Oi! Grandma!” one of the youths shouted. Lilith looked over; it was the short dumpy girl.
Grandma? Grand – fucking – ma! What is it with kids these days? Firstly, she’d had to deal with the shite in the castle and now this! She wasn’t that old! not compared to some. Back in her day… Okay, that was an old thing to say. Even so, these kids, disrespectful little shites. But maybe, just maybe, they had a use…
Lilith limped over to them; the damage to her foot was finally starting to hurt a little. “Granny, don’t you know it is dangerous in there”, the tall skinny one said. “Could be monsters in those woods”. Heh, don’t I know it, Lilith sniggered to herself. She approached the group, the four of them watching as she did so. Two girls and two boys, one fat one thing, one tall and one slim. “What d’ya want granny”, fatso said as she pulled his jacket back to reveal a knife stuck into her trousers. “You should be careful with that young lady”, Lilith said, eyeing the knives handle. “You could hurt yourself”. Lilith closed her eyes. She pictured the four of them stood there as she chanted in her head. Fat and short girls, tall and thin boys. Stood next to each other in a line. She would need everything she had, the situation wasn’t perfect, but it would have to do. If fatso had her knife, then it was likely that the others were armed, would it matter? She thought not. But, why take a risk? She would take out fatty and then the fall one. The tall one had more to aim for, after all, and she would have to be quick.
The four of them knew something was wrong; this was not how it was meant to be. They were young, and they were strong. There were four of them to this one. This haggard old crone, this bag of skin, bone and tissue. Why they thought, why wasn’t she afraid? The thought seemed to be transmitted between them by a form of terrified telepathy, and they all came to the same conclusion at once, she must be mad. They all went to take a step back, the fat one first and finally the slim one. Like dominoes, they moved one after the other.
Lilith still had her eyes closed, and she felt the change. She did not need to look, as she knew her instincts were right. They were suddenly afraid. Withered, frail, and as weak as she may have been, they had got that much right; they should be afraid. Lilith opened her eyes and smiled at them.
You create from what you know. There had been missteps, but the first creatures that Lilith had born were the blood drinkers. They had been given weaknesses, but they lived on the life of blood and could come back, could survive most things if they had the gift of blood. Blood magic was one of the most powerful but dangerous to many, but not to her.
The top row of teeth that Lilith has slightly overhang the lower. When she smiles, you would not usually see this, as she is not one for big toothy smiles. Today she made an exception and smiled at the four, her top lip pulling back to show the four. The two cuspids extended, pushing down until they were an inch in length and sat on her lower lip. The group took another step back, getting ready to run. But by then, it was already too late.
Lilith jumped, a pounce even, at the one with the knife. You first fatty, she thought. She grabbed the knife by the butt, holding the pommel and pushed down with all her might. The knife slipped the belt that held both it and the jeans, and she continued to push. She got lucky. She had expected to have to reposition her hands as the knife dropped. Having to push it through, they reposition because of the belt. The blade of the knife had cut the belt, as she had pushed it had cut. “Why how lucky I am”, Lilith said as the knife moved downwards, piercing through the girl’s skin. Little Miss chubby chops screamed as the knife entered, and Lilith laughed as she felt it hit bone. Lilith pushed the blade into the leg as hard as she could against the bone and then pulled it downwards. The blade scraped against the bone as she did so, cutting the leg from top to bottom. She’d give chubby this much; she knew how to look after a blade.
This took seconds; for Lilith, it was over too soon; for chunky, it seemed to last forever. The remaining free had turned were about to run. Had they not been so shocked, things may have turned out differently. Lilith darted from the fat one to the tall one. She moved at speed quite unnatural for her looks. She looked old and frail, but she moved like a fit teen. She grabbed the tall boy and jammed her fungal infected thumbnail into his neck. Jamming it down hard as it squished through the soft tissue. She pulled the thumb out, and blood spouted from the wound like a pipe that had burst. She had broken the artery. She took a mouthful as he fell, then held her hand tight over the wound. She waved her free hand in the air, closing finger and thumb in a circle and the other two freeze. They freeze as they were running, stuck like a bubble in an ice cube. “Hold, on I’ll get to you”, Lilith says. Her voice sounded younger now, not young but younger. “You too”, she said to the girl who was lying on the floor sobbing her eyes out while holding her leg. Blood had started to pool on the floor around her. A sticky red goo that clung to her. Lilith shaped her free hand once again, linking her thumb and little finger, the other three fingers pointing outwards. The blood turned blue and stuck to her, a sticky bloody blue tar holding her in place. “You too sweetheart”, Lilith smiles. “But first I have to feed”.
Like the vampires that she had first created, she clamped her mouth down on the neck and removed her hand. And then, she fed.
First, the liver spots on her body faded and then vanished. The skin that was hanging free now tightened. Ageing in reverse, Benjamin Button, Lovely Lilith returning to form. Her buttocks firmed up, as do her breasts. The wobbly dangling things she had sucked back up as the skin tightened around them. Her hair darkened, the grey knotting and weaves of time being turned backwards. Colour returned to her skin and hair, blossoms to her cheeks as she drank the last of the blood.
Lilith dropped the now bloodless body to the floor; it landed with a thump. Forty-three seconds from the grabbing of the knife to the final slurp, she was getting slower. Still, this is better, she thought as she looked down at her newly reformed cleavage. “Okay, nearly done children. I shall be with you in a moment”, she said aloud and laughed. She now had the laughter and body of a woman in her mid-thirties, and she was back to her best. Well, almost…
She stood up and put her two hands together, all fingers touching the tips of their opposites. She then twisted her hands, crossing fingers, and her clothes vanished. One minute they were there, the next gone. She continues with her hands, and the new clothes appear. Boots to her knees, stockings to her thighs and cleavage for anyone unlucky enough eyes. Held together with a dark purple corset. The purple icing on this dangerous cake, this deadly trifle. Her hands continued to move, and the knickers appeared black and laced. Then the dress, black and down to her ankles, shoulders covered but not her arms. She stopped and looked down at herself and then looked in the glass window. “Something missing…” she mused aloud. “Ah ha!” she exclaimed and twisted her hands once more. A thin lace strip of creatures appeared on the bottom hem of the dress. All of her babies along the hem of her dress. The vampires, the werewolves, the succubi, and everything else represented and honoured by their mother.
Lilith turned and looked at the three that remained. “I look better, don’t I?” She asked, the long black hair hanging over one shoulder and settling in her cleavage. “D’ya know,” she said to the frozen two, “if you had run when I first started, you would have maybe escaped. I’ve been running on empty for so damn long”. She looked down at the one held by the gluey blue blood. “Do you know what it is like to be that hungry?” Looking at the girl sobbing, she continued. “Well, no, you don’t do you. You don’t look like you’ve missed a meal in your life”. Lilith smiled at her, her fangs now descended back into her jaw.
“Please, we didn’t mean you no harm. We was just having a laugh”, the girl cried. “You will learn something here, a valuable life lesson. Life Ha!” Lilith laughed out loud, an evil crackle of a laugh. “Don’t take the piss, or ‘have a laugh’ with your elders. That is the first lesson. Now, be quiet and learn something”. The girl sobbed; her friends were still stuck in the air half step, trying to run or do something. All they could do was hear what was being said. “Now quiet”, Lilith said, and the girl on the floor instantly closed her mouth. It would have been comical in any other time or place.
“Up you get”, Lilith said to the bloodless corpse. “I have work for you yet. You too…” Then she stopped and just burst out laughing. It was impulsive; it may have even been contagious at any other time. She clasped her hands over her mouth. Her eyes danced with humour, and she spluttered to suppress herself. Finally, she managed it and regained her composure. “Oh shit. I was going to call you a weeble! But then I rememebered. Weebles don’t fall down, and you did”. And then, she lost it again. The laughter returned. It spewed from her like gas escaping a pressurised container. She held her belly and bent over, then she laughed and walked to the glass windows and put her arm against them to steady herself.
Eventually, she stopped. She looked over at the two runners, and her eyes darted from them and then to the window. They moved quick as a flash and smashed into the window. The glass behind them cracked, but it didn’t break. This was secured for a shop frontage. She then looked at the one on the floor, the one she had mocked relentlessly. “You’ll also learn that I am a bitch”, she said to her. Then she looked at the glass once more, and the girl with the knife still sticking from just above her shin flew and smashed into it. The three of them lined up in a torturous lineup, their eyes open even though they wanted to close them. The three of them unable to look away. “Come on, you too corpsey”, Lilith said to the blood drained husk. Lilith held her arms out, holding them in front of herself with her palms facing downwards. Then she flicked the two middle fingers upwards; as she did so, the corpse began to rise. It was slow to start with; it was like it had a string attached to its head wound up. Then whatever creature or magic that was reeling in the line got the hang of it, and it sped up. The dead body of their friend being lifted by his head until he was standing tall once more. Then Lilith raised her arms and started to spin. The body walked like a puppet on strings to the glass window. “Ha, look its my puppet. How wonderful is that!” Lilith screamed with joy. Smiling, spinning and laughing (not as infectiously) to herself as the four friends stood pinned to the glass.
Lilith stopped with her back to the four; she placed her hands in a fist. The fingers and thumbs interweaving with each other. She held it up to her mouth and kissed it, then she threw her arms forwards as she unlinked her hands. As she did so, the ground rumbled, and a small twig poked through. Six inches that had pushed through the stone pathway as quickly and efficiently as Lilith had the neck of the tall one. She walked to the twig and snapped it off. “Bye bye mr twee”, Lilith said like a baby and waved. The small hole that the twig had made closed. The branch that had been pruned receding back to the earth below. Lilith span to look at the four. “I think you will be perfect!” She said to them as she walked forwards.
She snapped the twig that she had into four parts, holding them in her palm. “Tall man, Thin man”, Lilith said. “Fat girl and Short girl”. She paused to consider. “Oh, I like that. I like that a lot”, Lilith said to them. She walked to the thin one, one of the two who had run. She places one of the pieces of twig into his mouth. She repeats this with the short girl. She then comes to the fat girl, whose mouth is still closed. “Well come on, open up”, she demands. “Oh, sorry. I forgot you cant”. Lilith reached down slowly this time. She can take her time; for now, there is no rush. She grabbed the handle of the knife stuck in the girl’s leg and pulls it, still taking her time. “Oh hush ya baby”, she says without looking up. The girl’s eyes watered from the pain. She is trying to scream, but she cannot open her mouth. A snail trail of snot escapes from her nose and bubbles at the end of her nostril. “That’s gross”, Lilith said as she looked at the girl once more. “Right, this might hurt a little. I’m warning you”, she said. Lilith then slammed the knife forward with her left arm and sunk it deep into the girl’s cheek. She pulled the knife free and threw it to the floor. “Won’t be needing that again”, she said. She then leant forward and pushed the twig through the hole in the cheek. “See that was easy”.
Lilith then walked to the final one, her tall man. She pushed the twig into his mouth and then stood back from the four hostages. She then started chanting in Elden.
Language, like monsters or humans, evolves over time. Phrases get swallowed and regurgitated, words get dropped or repurposed. Enochian is the language of the angels. Elden is the language of the devils. Lucifer just had to be different; he always had to have his own things. All angelic creatures and all satanic ones can speak both; they are, at a minimum, duel lingual. They are also masters at other languages; what good would it have done if they had come to earth to help or hinder and then could not be understood? It is possible to understand, in a way, and order a pint using your arms and hands to motion what you want. Try to possess someone that way, or try and bring someone back from the edge. It is not easy! So that was the third thing she always did when creating. Lesson one. They had to be scary of fun. Lesson two. They had to be intelligent. Lesson three. They had to be willing to learn. To be intelligent and unwilling to learn, to think you have learnt it all, is useless. You should never stop learning.
The four stood as she chanted, three alive still and one dead. They stood, and she chanted. The plump girl was trying to keep the blood that flowed from her cheek from drowning her. The other two were frozen and could only watch and listen. They all twitched at once. A leg on one, an arm on another, but they all moved at once. Their bones cracked, and the pain ripped through their eyes. Their arms contracted inwards, pulling themselves into the body. It was like an unseen force was pulling them back into the centre, back to the heart. The arms were swallowed by the torso. The legs followed in the same manner. Bones clicking and clacking as the legs were sunk. Sucked back up into the body.
Lilith pointed at the girl who had taken the full force of her anger. The one who had caught her attention first. Grandma indeed, she thought. “Ha!” she said and pointed at what was left of the large girl. “Now you really are a weeble”, at this, she burst into laughter again. The torsos began to shrink. They shrunk fast; within ten seconds, they were the size of a small pea. All that remained were the heads with a small pea shape torso attached to the bottom. “Okay, so it’s been nice meeting you all”, Lilith said, “but I have what I need now, so goodnight”. She pointed her finger like a gun at the head of what was once the tall boy. She took her time, pretending to aim. Like a child at a fairground shooting range, she lined up the shot. Then she said “bang”, and the head exploded, the small pea dropped to the ground. She slowly moved her gun finger along the row to the small girl. She smiled as she lined it up and then, “bang”. The head exploded with the pea once again dropping to the floor. She pointed at the short girl. “Hidey ho”, she said, followed with the “bang”. The pea torso fell. Finally, she walked up to the last one, the one she had teased. She placed her gun finger under the girl’s jaw, and then held it there. “I am going to level with you”, Lilith said to her. “I could not give a shite if you are fat or not. You annoyed me by calling me a grandma. I am a mother to many things, all the best things you could say. But look at me, I am no grandma!”. Lilith smiled at the girl; it was a pleasant smile. One that friends who have not seen each other for a long time may give across a busy bar. “So I would aplogise”, Lilith said. “But, I wont, because I’m a bitch”. She left it hanging for a moment and then whispered “bang”, and the girls head exploded with the pea torso once again falling to the ground.
Lilith gathered the four peas in one hand and looked at them. She spoke to them with all the affection that a mother or father would have for a newborn. “Oh my baby-wabies, you are going to be just so special”. She then closed her palm and heading back the way she had come, back into the woodlands.
Lilith wandered deeper and deeper into the woods; she wandered for half an hour until she came across a small clearing. She entered the clearing and walked to the centre of it. Once she was there, she got down on her knees and dug a small hole with the hand that was not carrying the pea-torsos. She did not need much, just a handful of dirt. She placed the peas into the hole and then covered them with dirt. Then she slipped her knickers to her ankles and crouched over the dirt, and urinated on it. Once she was done, she pulled her knickers back up and stood. She turned and looked at the disturbed earth that was now wet with her waste. She chanted once more in Elden, and then it happened.
A tree came pummeling up through the earth. Starting right on the point of her piss, it threw itself up into the open air and clearing like an F1 car flying from a tunnel. It was no small tree either this was a massive king-sized oak that darted upwards. Fully formed and ready to drop acorns on the ground. It was like it had been in hiding and now wanted to come out and play. Lilith walked to it and drew a symbol on the bark using her finger; she then stood back. Like the tree that Sophia had used, this one groaned and creaked. The bark split and opened. This time it was light, not darkness, and it flooded what was left of the clearing. Illuminating it for a moment, but then the light withdrew. It almost seemed to crawl back into the centre of the trunk of the tree. Then it was gone, and all that remained was blackness. A figure walked from this darkness. A tall man, six-foot-five and dressed in a suit. He was followed by a woman who was five-foot-nothing and dressed in a dress suit. Then came the thin man, once again in a suit. Finally, the fat woman emerged, wearing a dress suit. They all lined up side by side, standing still and obedient. “Shall we go and have some fun?” Lilith asked them. “Go and cause a little mayhem?”. Then they replied.
“Yes Mistress”, they said one by one.
“Oh goody”, Lilith said and turned back to the tree. She walked up to the darkness, towards the darkness that she had once called home. Heading to the black centre of the great tree’s trunk. She walked into it and vanished. One by one, her new creations followed her into the starless dark that hid inside that tree. Once they had all passed through the tree, it groaned once more and closed its trunk. The bark rejoining its other half until there was no sign that anything was there at all.